Uneek Poetry

Poetry

"Simple Complexity"

I'm trapped within the confines of my own mind.

As I drift into the fantasy that has become my reality or better yet my sanctuary I reflect. This reality I live in isn't quite what I hoped for.

I am the epidemy of a simple complexity.

I live in the fantasy that love and romance exist in this society but the truth is I am surrounded by the desires of man. Lust rules this world and you get in where you fit in or rather you slide into what fits like a penis into a vagina. No more can simple pleasures exist.

Talking is unheard of and if you sit and listen long enough you realize my mind may be too complex to decipher but my ass is round enough to distract you from my complex mind.

You'd rather fuck me and leave me than make love to my mind and let the body come naturally.

Making love is an art and I am a master artist.

I can make love to you on many levels and leave you wanting more. I can fulfill your every desire and have you want nothing more than to be in my presence. The problem with that is that it goes both ways. As much as you want me, I'll want you and the truth is...rejection is a motherfucker.

Like I said I am a simple complexity.

Simple in the sense that it doesn't take much to please me and yet complex enough to be trapped in the confines of my mind. In my mind I yearn for the fairy tale that all girls have; to fall in love and get married. I talk about it so much you would think I would speak it into existence. The misconception of me talking about it is that most people fear my fantasy. Just because I say I want to get married doesn't mean I will get married tomorrow if someone asked. Relationships take time and to be that serious take dedication.

I want my husband to be my friend first. I want to know his past, present, and future. I want to feel whole when I am with him but strong enough to be without him. I want to represent for US well. The same is true for a boyfriend. I just got out of a relationship. That doesn't mean I want to jump back in another one. That also doesn't mean I will pass up an opportunity if it comes. I just want to feel wanted and desired.

Love is a relative word...

The emotions associated with "love" only come in time but I want to feel like I deserve to be loved. I am a simple complexity. I want to be pleased on more than one level. I want to be physically pleased, teased, held, and caressed. Emotionally I want to feel wanted or desired. Spiritually I want to be made whole. Is that wrong? In return I will please you in any way I can. There isn't anything I wouldn't do to make you happy all I need is the chance.

Do you hear me?

All I need is the chance.

I am a simple complexity.

Though I drift into the confines of my complex mind I never loose sight of reality. Reality is a motherfucker and the truth is when I look into your eyes I see lust and not desire.

I just want to be loved.

U + Me ≠ US

U + Me ≠ US because I am all I have.

Though I don't need anything (but you) and I do love to love you, I have still come to the conclusion that love will not sustain all.

I must rely on myself and love myself more than I love you.

I'll take you off the pedestal of perfect imperfections and place myself above you.

It may sound cocky or arrogant but in order for this to work you must realize that I am the "shit" and if that is the case you must cherish the fact that I chose you and no one else.

You must also know that if I chose you I don't want anyone else and I am not willing to share.

If I have to share you, then I don't want you.

And, if I am the one giving all and doing all the loving in this two-way street turned one way then I will go my way and give myself to myself and continue to love myself and not devote all the love to you.

So if U + Me = ME then maybe one day it can equal US but for now...

IT DOESN'T!

Quiet Moments Alone

In quiet moments or in the quiet of night I think of you.

When I am alone at night I think of you.

When I am lonely I think of you.

Always I am thinking of you...